28/6 What are friends for?

They ignore you when you are lonely?
They leave you alone when you are sad and need somebody's support?
They find you only when they have problem?
They talk to you just only when they felt like talking to you?
They don't talk to you when you don't talk to them?
They ....

Felt really lost for a sudden... Not saying any one of my friends..

It's just my problem..

And that's it.. Don't get offended or anything..




I really hope there are really truthful friends in this world..

X Or perhaps alone is better?

26/6 True Loneliness

This saturday morning, I woke up and I know there is not going to be anyone in my hse..

Because my mum yesterday already told me

she need to attend a talk, my bro got his activity, my dad went for his work for a few days and my sis also have her own activity...

1st time ever, I felt very lonely.. true loneliness.. haiz..

No one to text to..
No one to talk to..
No one for anything, juz myself..

But luckily I woke up at 12pm..
Just a few hours, then my bro will come back and buy lunch for me already..
Thank God, I normally wake up at between 8am and 10am, but today wake up at 12pm..

Hate to be alone..
But sometimes need to get used to it...

Actually I hope I can wake up at 3pm or so..

Listening to songs, wish that
it can stop the feeling of loneliness..


X Loneliness is torturing..

25/6 有沒有想過..?

有沒有想過 身邊最疼你的親人或朋友

有一天會離你而去 ?

但我們

都會
错误以為那将会是好久以後的事了...


真的
要好好愛

与

珍惜
身邊的人  把握每一次能与他们在一起的时间...

也要记得

要快乐地生活哦.. ^^

Hmmm...

haha.. holiday is going to end already...

2 more days school will reopen le..

This holiday learn a lot.. (Secret) ..XD

But everyday holiday late sleep eventhough didn't watch football... Because not interested haha..

School reopens don't know will how, now feel so relaxed..

Had fun this holiday...

But don't have enough sleep.. haih.. A bit tired.. X(

Haha.. XP happy together wiv 'nobody' these few days..^^

Happy time flies by very quickly... Sobz..

Can I have another 1 week of holiday? haha..

Thanks a lot for those who made me happy and made me learn something this holiday..
Appreciate it lots..

(^=^)

Haha..

Sometimes I feel those who I talked to, they seems to be "proud" and ignore me..

I was angry but then I am not already for now.. Because why must other people respond to what I say? XDD

No offence... But I really hate those who are ls la.. XP Just dun hate some people who is ls in a way that I don't think it is ls..

Say what you feel is right then is already ok and what for being sad if other people didn't respond ?

Nowadays I felt happy about life.. XP

And plus I don't know why , I hate people say they are boring with their life.. ^^

Life's fun eventhough there is nothing to do.. hehe..

This holiday was ok.. Didn't do anything special or what, but overall I enjoyed the holiday till today..

( ^ - ^ )

4

Wohooo... I am happy today for some reasons..
I am able to control myself from being down by the 'devil'//
haha hapi.. XD

When i am on the way to "emo", I change my thoughts...
It's that easy...
And I am happy once again..
Didn't think before I can control my emotions...

Today, I did it.. ^^
Congratz!!!

Although some sad things happen this morning and afternoon, which is caused by my sensitiveness..
By evening, it's already ok..
Just need some time sometimes to calm down.... XDD

Today I am very happy.. X)))
Today was going to have a tuition, but then there is not...
haha and something happen..
I felt like I am going back to the past..
The past which is happy and time full with friend's laughter.. I miss a lot of that..
Because I am already not same class with those close friends to me...
Enjoy talking with u today.. x)

Haha life continues to go on..

=== > I am going to sleep d..XPP
zzzZZzzzz

3

Haha.. miss my old blog a lot.. but then because I think it somehow get corrupted or some stupid people go leave some "dirty" comments.. X((
So I decided to open this new blog.. XD

Today bought a book related to how to be happy..
By reading a few pages, I am already starting to feel happy..
The true hapiness.. XDD
The book's cover is a bit plain but then inside, it's full with "treasure"...
So ya.. Don't judge a book by its cover.. haha..

Hmm.. Guess after I read that book, I won't be so easily get sad already..
Share something here.. haha
When you are happy, the people around you is happy together with you..
But when you are sad, you are only crying alone and no one gonna bother you or help you..
Because it's really our own business... X)) So we need to "recover" back by ourselves...

But haiz, I still have a big problem.. I don't really know how to socialise..
I don't know when to talk and when not to...
I don't know what to talk and some friends said my talking topics are real damn bored..
I don't know when to talk more and when not to talk at all..
I don't know when I talk something wrong...
I don't know how to accept and like everyone...
I don't know how to make friends...
I don't know whether I am honest to friends, is it wrong sometimes?
I don't know a lot of stuffs.. X((

Nowadays I felt like everyone is like doing what they want and what they like without thinking of how other people will look at them.. But I just can't be like "them".. ==
I have friends whom I really admire their personalities.....
They have something in common.. They are always happy and they know to be themselves..

Hopefully I can be like them someday...

2

对不起, 当你们向我莞尔的时候,
我却毅然转身,不领情的不给你们回应.

对不起, 当你们的问候像风呼啸过我的身旁,
我却不小心带上耳塞,闭上了耳朵.

对不起,你们一直找我聊天,
我却不曾找过你们.

对不起,你们需要我帮忙时,
我却像是突然消失了.

对不起, 从来都只有你们为我撑着伞,
我却一直在我们之间建起了一道墙.

对不起,你们还记得我,
我却忘了你们.

对不起,你们把我当成朋友,
我却把你们当隐形.

对不起,伤害到了你们.

对不起,对不起,对不起.

讨厌我,你们可以离开我,
让我孤独地生活.

我不会伤心,难过.

毕竟,
伤心,寂寞,沉默
我已经习惯了.

1

我
不再去想过去,
也不再去想未来,
我
只想如何活在现在…
珍惜现在…

我
学会忘记一切悲伤事物,
没有任何烦恼,
没有任何悲伤,
没有任何忧虑地
生活……

我
也学会了如何面对人生
种种的考验…

我曾经哭过
曾三百六十五天地哭过…
我却发现哭并没给我带来任何利益…

所以
我
不再流泪…
我
选择与快乐交友…
渐渐地
我与它做了朋友
我
发现我真真实实地开心了…
开心了…